Friday, 1 July 2011

It's A Love Hate Thing

I'm at war. Every day I'm facing another battle in an attempt to secure overall victory. My foe? My current work in progress.

It's a funny thing, this particular book. I love the story, I love my characters, I love re-reading what I've already done. But, and this is rather unfortunate, I HATE writing it!

I can't figure out what the problem is. The two novels I've completed were a joy to write. I couldn't get enough of them, hated being distracted, and if I'd been left to my own devices probably wouldn't have eaten or left the house for months. But this one? Well, as I say, we're like squabbling siblings caught in a perpetual scrap.

Some days I win, and get a substantial word count down. But more often, it's me that's defeated. One day this week I only managed to get down 20 words. That is shameful!! And what's worse is that they were an abysmal 20 words that were quickly deleted the following day.

My mum has a theory, that's probably not far off the mark. The thing is, my first two are completely separated from any kind of reality. When I wrote them, I was able to lose myself in the story entirely. But my current one is a totally different genre and in many ways, quite similar to my own life. Mum believes that is why I'm struggling, because I'm not able to escape in quite the same way, and I think she might be right.

Another problem is I haven't found the perfect writing soundtrack to this MS yet. And that is crucial to me because I thrive off the music. I've tried everything we own against it, and many more, but I haven't found anything that sits well with the mood I need to create whilst writing.

Perhaps it would be sensible to leave this one be for now and move on to another of the many ideas I have in the pipeline. But I'm nothing if not stubborn, and I refuse to be defeated by this! Because I'm nearly there - another 20-30k words and the first draft would be complete. And trust me, that would be enough to win the war.

~ Bex ~

2 comments:

  1. I'm kind of in the same place, and I can recommend doing what you suggest. I started writing a romcom earlier this year, got to Act 2 and stalled. Couldn't muster enough enthusiasm to go on, so started outlining another project. Now I'm coming back to the romcom with some unexpected inspiration about how to proceed. I think your unconscious works these things out in the background but it needs time. If you're struggling maybe you need to give it a chance to catch up.

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  2. Aw, thanks for the advice. Nice to know I'm not alone! I guess I'm genuinely worried if I leave it I'll never come back! But perhaps I'll let you inspire me and take a break - at this point I don't think it could hurt! Thanks again and good luck with your romcom. x

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